Dear diary,
How are you? I'm not fine. Okay, maybe I'm fine. I don't know. Happy Sunday by the way. I feel bad right now.😖 I know. I know.🙄 You think I'm always feeling bad. But that's not true. Remember my laughing sprees? Lol. You don't want to meet me there. I literally roll on the floor in laughter. Whatever sha.
So today went by like that. I can't say I achieved anything. I washed some clothes and cooked jollof rice with those little pieces of stockfish my mum packed for me. I can proudly say I've mastered the art of preparing proper jollof rice. Hehehehe. 😆😊😊
Diary, I'm scared. We were taught about relevance today in church. Well, that wasn't the topic but that's what I gleaned from the message. Every time, I feel like I'm just one of the many people oxygen is being wasted on. What have I given? I've checked my facebook countless times today and people are just starting up stuff everywhere. Yes, I know I shouldn't compare o but hmm... I cannot be 'dulling' o.
Wait sef. I feel lost. Honestly, I don't even know what to write anymore. I haven't posted anything on the blog for days now. I have three unfinished works on my table. God help me!!!
There's nobody to complain to. I've read about discipline and I've seen myself wearing the cloak so well. It's been a while since I last wore it sha. I can't find it. I think something came in through the back door and stole it from me. Now I have to wear my old garment of laziness. That same garment that makes me feel naked. This is not me!
I'm smart. I'm strong. I'm sweet. I'm your typical superwoman... #tongue out.
I most certainly do not feel that way.
I've been thinking a lot lately. Well, all the time. I need to get out of this place. But it feels like my legs are broken.
How did I get here?
I have a line-up of contests to enter. I think the fuse in my brain is blown. Somebody call the electrician!
I want to write. I've been writing but I keep abandoning them. I need a 'writinvention'.
And just like that. I've wasted precious ink complaining. Let me go and read my school books abeg. I have a test on Thursday.
Wish me luck.
Yours in love,
Me.
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